Physically nothing.
Personality wise sometimes I act like a vile ball of hatred. The cup isn't half empty, I smashed it on the f!ucking groundand, i'm very critical. My mother harped on me about this my entire life, but i'm grateful that I have a critical, if not overactive, mind rather than just accepting constant bulls!hit at face value. But I still need to learn how to pick and choose my battles.
I'm also wracked with guilt, shame, and self-doubt, and most of it is too deep and dark to ever mention to another human being who would probably expose a glimpse into my flawed, human, vulnerable sid e, especially one who hasn't already laughed at one of my ha-ha-only-serious-or-am-I-really-only-kidding-after-all jokes. |