Oh you didn't get it? the obsession.. Here's the list: "I can't act because of my looks, people only focus on my looks then, still I chose only the roles that focus on my looks (Eurotrip, Edgemont, Lana, Snow white and oh everything else) I can't be myself/represent the asian population cause then people will only focus on my looks, my eurasian/asian looks and nothing else, I'm so afraid people won't see the inside when the only thing I obsess about is my outside, I had a bad childhood because.. my looks.. I.. I had nothing nothing to do with people not liking me, I don't want people to look.. because you know my looks but I pose so people can look anyway, hey I'm in a tv show, because I don't want people to look! I'm a model because.. I don't want people or myself to focus on my looks. Wow what a CURSE!